Nothing to say.

I've been struggling with reconciling a decision made by someone in one of my support networks. In her post sharing the news, she said, "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything." So I've said nothing. It's not that I don't want to be nice, but I don't agree with the choice being made and question the rationale around making it. I want to question it. I want to ask if they truly investigated all the alternatives. I want to know why. And I want to tell them WHY NOT. But I don't. I'm saying nothing. 

It's hard sometimes to be in this world. I hate the phrase "God only gives special children to special people." He doesn't. He gives them to ordinary people. Some embrace their new role and become extraordinary. Others don't. God has nothing to do with that. 

My faith hasn't been stellar lately, and this is shaking it a little more. But I'm praying for peace on this one. To get my head and heart to let go of the sadness and anger I'm feeling. It's hard though... To be faithful... To let go... It's a struggle. And it's one I'm currently losing.